Well I have the feeling I may have just ruined my ex best mates relationship with my ex boyfriends best friend (M) ... Its a long story... dunno if I should go into it yet or not...
Anyway, I emailed M like... on the 7th as he was on my mind. We fell out in 2007 over something stupid and I never fully understood why until today. But yeah, I emailed him saying how he was on my mind so I felt like emailing him and just pretty much told him that I wanted to know why we fell out.
So he told me... he didn't love me... he was IN love with me. And apparently it hurt him because he couldn't fight his emotions and he knew he couldn't have me and the only way for him to deal with it was to cut me out of his life. We were once best friends, more than best friends. I don't know if anyone has ever experienced this before but with me and him.. we could kind of just look at each other and know exactly what was going on... It use to freak people out because we'd have conversations through facial expressions.. Lips not moving at all just the eyes moving and then suddenly we'd start laughing at the same time instantaneously. Weird much?
But yeah, I burst into tears when I read it... and then decided to guilt trip him. So I told him I only stayed with his best friend so that I could see him, as I thought that if I broke up with him then I owuld never see M again. He didn't like that. So I then told him in another email that he should ask L and D (ex and best mate) what happened between them last march(2008) as D told me about a week after me and L had broken up, and at that time M still didn't know...
Well I emailed that,.... then regretted it so emailed him again and told him well begged him to ignore it and to just ignore me. Whether he does or not is an entirely different matter!
D isn't in this but L is the guy at the back, then its H(M's best mate) then its M and then me... You'd think me and M were together...
On a different matter, my boyfriend G told me tonight that back in January this girl told him that she would trade him a cigarette for his friend... if he gave her a kiss. Now G's friend would kick off with him if he didn't get the cig... but the girl just gave him it anyway. However, later on they were sat outside, G , his mate and 3 girls. And the girl from earlier went over to him and sat on his knee and went 'you still owe me that kiss'. G however said he never agreed to it but the girl kissed him on the side of his mouth and G just screwed his eyes shut and tightened his lips...
Two reasons why I am annoyed... A) He didn't push her off of him to stop her and B) this was FOUR MONTHS AGO!!!! He should have told me sooner...
But yeah... thats me done for today, I'm too emotional at the moment to think of anything else to write and I also have 3 exams on friday... so yeah!
ADIOS!!!
Jo x
I WANT MORE MORE MORE =] Keep them coming hun x
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